Awww thats so cute!

Its great to see a guy with actual real feelings.

She's be so much better off with you than that jerk.

Hope everything works out xxx

I think you have a pretty good chance of being with her, it's just not the right time yet.

wait it out, see what happens.

i know that if i were her i would give you a chance, especially if my current BF treated me like that.

:)

good luck.

Hey chris its sid, well im just writing to say thanks for the advice and alos asking for a request which will benefit you and me!

Join this site its good- www.help.com- anyways basically i need a friend on there im so lonely and i know you like advice and its really good! IM CALLED UNENDURABLE ON THAT SITE ASWELL!

PLEASE

sid

P.S. are you keeping up 100%

Hey chris,

Well done for pulling thorugh and i'm sorry about your problem! Yes, sometimes things can be misinterperated but you have to re-interperated them so that person that understood it wrongly understands what you actually meant! what happened anyway you did'nt write in much detail?

It's nice to hear from you too.

Sid

P.S. of course i remember you!

 Hey Chris, 

Don't worry. I'm not going anywhere anytime soon. Glad to hear from ya.

-Courtney- 

Hey Chris,

Long time no talk. Whatever you said must not be misinterpreted if the person you said it has said nothing about it. Don't worry over the little things, I don't want  to see you fall into sadness again, it hurts me to know that you're sick and hurting. I'm here for you, and you know where to find me.

Keep your chin up

-Courtney-

I think it depends on what you said...how bad was it? If it was bad enough to be misinterprited in a bad way, then apologize and say somthing like " thats not what I meant, it came out wrong.'

Hiya There!

Been awhile since  have read your Diary I will read it tomorrow and catch up on your Enteries.  

Hope all has been good with you   :)

Hugs

cute!

wow....apparently you care about her a lot....she should appreciate that....

awww ur a sweet person. he betta realize how good she is cuz u r too.....lol

anyway my fav is Love should come with a warning sign or should have a "viewer discretion is advised" notice

aww thats so sad..and cute..

I hope things work out for you in the end.
Its good to be happy for her and hope shes happy :]
Maybe she will realize your the one for her.
good luck!
<3Cassie

Hey Chris, glad to hear from you. Things will be okay, just be strong, get through it and before you know it, it'll be behind you. The hospital always sucks, but it does something good for us.

Good luck, and keep your chin up.

-Courtney-

Hey, I'm so glad to see that you're back.
Some things may not happen the way you want them to be{We all know that by now}, and I'm sure you can get through them. You've got us here to talk to, especially me. If you need anything you know where to find me.

Keep your chin up

-Courtney-

Hey, you'll be alright. Things happen, and tons of people make mistakes. Don't think about the what ifs, it only makes it worse. You're grandpa is okay, just be happy that he is. If you keep wandering into the what ifs, you'll only drag yourself down farther. Everyone makes mistakes, keep that in mind, though I'm not saying you have to forgive your mom for it, just don't let it eat you up. Prayers are being sent your way...

I'm here for you if you need me, keep your chin up.

-Courtney-

hey, thanks for commenting on my entry it has helped me alot. i guess i am lucky but sometimes i get so frustrated and angry wid da pple around me i get out of control. i no i dont have depression as i am only 14. i guess its the teenage hormones. lol.

enough about me. i hope things work out with your friends. you wrote a pretty funny entry. let me know how it goes on.

Hey,

You are soo lucky to get a brand new laptop. im not aloud to get one till i am 15. you sound like your having a great time wid ur life. anywayz hope everything works out 4 u.

Hey,

Good to hear from you, hope everything stays well with you.
Keep udating

-Courtney-

hey Newbiginnings! How are you doing?

Happy Valentine's DAy

Hey Chris,
 I'm so glad you're back, I've missed your updates and all. I'm glad things are going better than before. Don't worry about the little things, if something doesn't go right, don't sweat it.

You're a great guy and I'm sure you're strong enough to handle whatever comes your way. You'll be fine. I'll keep you in my prayers just to be sure.

Always here,

-Courtney-

Hey Chris,
It's great to finally hear from you. I'm glad everything is working out, but you do need to say something about the headaches if they get any worse.
I'm really happy to hear from, hope everything keeps going well.

-Courtney-

Glad to hear from you, im happy to know that you finally made it back to your hometown. Even though it's not the best, i'm sure its a big relief just to be back.

Have Fun. Have a Happy New Year. and Keep your chin up.

-Courtney-

Hey Chris,
glad to see your still around. i'm glad you had an awesome Christmas, what was your favorite gift?
I had an awesome Christmas too, totally fun.lol

Keep your chin up and keep on truckin'

-Courtney-

Hey Chris, glad to have you back.
Try to talk with both your dad and step mom and tell them how you feel. about everything. Be calm and hear them out too and things will probably start to turn around.
Have you been to the doctor about your head? if you havent, you need too. But im not gonna make you.

Im glad that you get to go back to your hometown, im sure that will help alot too. Have fun but dont overdo it. lol

Keep your chin up, keep posting, and have a great Christmas.

-Courtney-

Hey, thanks for commenting. Anyone i meet or know that has problems i send my heart out to. I'll pray for you.

Hope all goes well, keep your chin up.

-Courtney-

Tell your dad, get some help from a doctor, it may not be the most appealing option but its the best for you. It could get much worse than that. Even if you dont get to go back to your hometown for a while, it doesnt matter because thats not as inportant as your health.

I cant push you into doing anything, but that would be what i would do because i wouldnt want to have to wait for it to happen again to say something. I'll keep praying for you.

Keep your chin up.

-Courtney-

I'll pray that things get easier for you. Things will get better.

-Courtney-

Please don't. I will miss you too much.

Be strong. I'll pray for you.

Always her for you.

-Courtney-

Dont Give Up! If u do, you'll start a chain reaction. people will give up and probably kill themselves too. Dont do this. Be strong.

Im here for you. Always.

-Courtney-

Hey, i know things are really stressful right now, but try to chill. 
Take time for yourself, reflect and be calm about all of this.
Being mad about things is going to raise your Blood Pressure, especially if you are mad at your parents, the doctors, and the tests. Dont stress, try not to be so angry about things and you'll see a difference.

I'll keep praying for you. Hope everything goes well.

-Courtney-

You'll be ok. Believe in God, he will guide you.

I'll pray for u always.

Courtney

yes that helps =]

do you drive it regularly?

is there a lot of upkeep that you have to do?

Hey,
Glad you're feeling happier and better for that matter. You said that if felt like you have water in your head but you're not going to tell anyone, at least do your own research @ webmd.com/ put in the symptoms and it'll give you a cause for it, or bulk up and go to the dr. again. Dont leave that unchecked. U r never alone either.

Pray for u always,

 Courtney  

school will always be there. so yea, if u really wanna go back, then go back to school (it won't run, lol)

hmmm, if u dnt mind me asking, how old are u?

n_n

I don't know where your faith lies (Meaning I don't know if you believe in God) but I must tell you that if you pray thing will change. I know it sounds cliche but it's soooooooooooo true. I am a living witness that prayer does change things. I was born with asthma, severe asthma where carrying heavy items triggered an attack. Strenuous activity would trigger an attack. Playing a game with other kids would cause and attack from all the running around.

Doctiors prescribed all kinds of meds and it was not working. Different dosages and differnt kinds and my breathing habit remained the same. TRUE STORY--I prayed not knowing that I was "praying" just talking to God and asking him to make me better. I will be 23 next week and I have not had a single asthma attack since I was 19 years old and have not taken a single dose of medicine since. HEALING IS POSSIBLE. Pray for it.

Simple Plan does the same thing for me, when im down...it weird right?

Anyway, dont let this get you down, sounds to me like you're a really strong guy. You'll get through this. I'll pray for you.

-Courtney

Meh..don't feel to bad about God hating you,if he's real as people think,then he hates everyone:P...

I wanna say I'm sorry,but it really doesn't help you and makes me uncomfortable:P..I can however wish you luck with everything and say I hope everything works out good=)

And...

As for the simple plan thing....well simple plans just like a drug,lol,if you have it when your feeling bad for a while it'll make you feel better:P

                                                                          **Jen**

Kutless - All Alone

Icy Chill round your heart
A heart that's made of stone
It seems like life is out to get you
To destroy what you want
I know that that you blame me
For all that you go through
It could be so different
If you would just let it go

Chorus:
You're all alone running out of ways to
Hold on to hope, and it always slips away
You're all alone, but you don't have to
Pretend to cope, there is a brighter way

If you would change you perspective
You'd see that it is true
Life is not always what you want
Sometimes it's hard to bear
I'd be with you, and help you
In all that you go through
I love you, let me change your heart
By coming in

Spiritsfire

Hey,
 I'll be here for you if you need someone, take time for yourself and chill. God is not doing this for his own muse, he's just trying to make you stronger. Dont let it get you down. Just take it easy, and you can do whatever you feel like doing. Dont let HBP get in your way...

Im here for you.

Courtney

so...theres nothing anyone can do? im not really sure what ur saying.  do u have a tumor or something? like how bad is it? i dont mean to make u think more about it...but it is there, ya know? im still saying not to focus too much on it. this maybe serious, but dont beat urself up on it, ya know? maybe this is the time to clean ur slate. do all the things u normally wouldnt do, ya know what i mean? like...if u think this is something that will kill u or w/e...maybe u should make sure u have fullfilled ur life as much as possible. i dont know if ya think about this stuff, but i do. [just keep ur head up and smile] love like uve never loved, but passionate about life, even when times get hard. i still believe what i said. everything happens for a reason. thou its not exactly good. in the long run u dont see it happening any other way. maybe God is trying to test ur strength, hun. dont give up. fight back. dont let this stop u from happiness.

and as for ur mom...i see. and im sry ya went thru that. honestly no ones deserves that. but ur not alone on that 1. mean moms, to abusive households...thou ur mom is prolly all screwed up. still drinks and never sees u...or w/e it maybe. im sure she wouldve done things differently if she could. so even then- love ur mom. b/c honestly...u know u do deep down. that women gave u life. kids often just say they hate or cant stand their moms, dads [parents] b/c we dont like what they did. b/c face it. r parents screw up quite a few times. some more than others. but we got to learn to forgive them and move on...ya know? like we would with anyone else. just b/c their our old figures, should we expect so much from them?

well take care.

*i will look @ ur old diary soon too. not because i am bored, but b/c i am very interested in knowing what someone else deals w/. u seem like a great person, dont let life be something u waste on stressing and hating. enjoy b/c life is so beautiful when u really look at it. smile. =]

-peyton

    I like what that first comment says. I believe very close to the same thing. I haven't always, but I believe that God set up rules in the world that don't regularly get broken. If a 9 year old kid falls off a roof and breaks his leg, was that God's plan? Was is the devil in it? Really, it's just the kid not being careful, and parents not watching him. I tend to believe that there's an element of chaos and luck that the Lord set up. And with the exeption of miracles, it doesn't make sense for him to go around hurting people and blessing others. That's just what I think. Regardless, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time.

-Eli

And I will also pray for you, because I think you're worth it.  You are worth it because you are made in the image and likeness of God.  When Jesus comes back, I hope to meet the wonderful woman that is you, the young woman who gave her life to Jesus, received grace, and now gets to live with her eternal family, as well as her creator.  He offers you this.

Lord Jesus I pray your scriptures speak to her.  I pray she asks for forgiveness of sin.  She knows the depravity of this life, and I pray that you free her from the power of sin, and open her eyes to the love, hope, and glory that is you.

In Jesus Name I pray this

Amen

Dude... You've got it all wrong.

Don't run from God but run to him.  This life sucks, it sucks tremendously.  Everything goes wrong, and everything is f***** up.

What God offers is a relationship with him, one that will not only give meaning in this life under any circumstance, but when you die, you will live with God forever, and there will be no more suffering.

Here is the Gospel in a nut shell:

Romans 3:23 - For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.

Romans 6:23 - For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord.

Basically, we are f*****.

But!

Romans 5:8 - But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Think about it.  While your off doing whatever it is that you are doing, and pissing God off, God shows that he loves you, because Christ came and died.

1 John 1:8-10 - If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.

John 3:16-21 - "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."

Christ Took Our Punishment

 21 But now God has shown us a way to be made right with him without keeping the requirements of the law, as was promised in the writings of Moses^[a] and the prophets long ago. 22 We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are.

 23 For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard. 24 Yet God, with undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when he freed us from the penalty for our sins. 25 For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. This sacrifice shows that God was being fair when he held back and did not punish those who sinned in times past, 26 for he was looking ahead and including them in what he would do in this present time. God did this to demonstrate his righteousness, for he himself is fair and just, and he declares sinners to be right in his sight when they believe in Jesus.

I've given you the word of God.  This is in the bible, and there is good news.  God has offered you a gift, it's free.  It's eternal life with him.  I promise you, if you extend your hand to Jesus, he will bat it away.  He came, he died, and he rose.  Jesus is alive, God is alive, he is a living God.  The all powerful all mighty God came to Earth, to save us, to befriend us, to identify with our struggles, and what did we do?  We killed him, we killed God.  If you believe his message, if you believe his word, if you ask him to forgive you of your sins, to come into your life, to give you a new life, and if you want to be reborn and have a life that honors him, he'll do it, I promise you.

We'll get you plugged in with the Church family, people who will pray for you and become friends with you.

God is a good God, and Jesus is that God.  And let me ask you this, if not you, then who?  Who is worthy of God's blessing?  No one, but he chose to give us it, because he loves us, and all he asks is that you repent and ask for forgiveness.  And this isn't because he wants to burdeon you, but because our creator knows what's best for you, and he wants to free you from the garbage in your life.

If you believe his message, if you believe his word, if you ask him to forgive you of your sins, to come into your life, to give you a new life, and if you want to be reborn and have a life that honors him, he'll do it, I promise you!

 HEY you are so not a bad person...

Look at me I had to go on a dating site to find a person like that girl...

That story sounds a bit of my life... lol yer I found this guy on this site and we started talking... he was different... he was nice and sweet... we both shared personals stories about everything... Family, friends and life...

But one advice... ALWAYS BE HONEST... because my guy told me he was finished school and hes 18 BUT... no!! he's not... and that makes me wonder if I should trust him...

so yer otherwise it will come back and hit you in the face..

GOOD LUCK... would like to hear an outcome from this... so keep writing... I'm already a fan.. lol

so iare you going to stick around for a while longer?

You are very welcom...and you EVER need help again just let me know!

God Bless

~eli

Hun.

Please reconsider this.

I know right now life for you feels pointless.

You think no one will care if you do it...right?

Well someone does.

I dont even know you that well..AND I WOULD CARE!

I know what i am talking about because i felt the same way.

I tried to kill myself by taking 3 bottles of pills.

It didnt do a THING to me and i realized i was meant to live..God does love me.

But once you do it you cant take it back.

GOD DOES LOVE YOU

AND SO DO A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE EVEN IF THEY DONT SHOW IT ENOUGH!

I will bre praying for you as long as you want me too.

I will even tell my grandmother to mention it at her church if you would like..

God Bless You

try and be a little bit positive about things and you might be surprised. Our thoughts become us, so be careful

thanks for dropping by

I am so sorry that things are not working you way now, but it's all for the best, believe me! Some day you will understand.

Stay strong my (lil) friend

It is because you are not on a schedule. You need to set your alarm. Some people only need 7-8 hours a sleep a night..most people do. If you are getting a lot more sleep you will be more tired. If you are used to less hours, don't sleep more than an hour or maybe two extra.

As for the eating...your stomache has to learn your new way of eating. You feel hungry a lot because your stomache has not shrunk yet. It will adjust. I find that when I eat low calorie foods in the morning..like a special k bar...I am hungry all day. Try eating some thing a little higher in calories in the morning. Are you trying to eat more or less? Either way your stomache has to adjust. Try eating small portions throughout the day. About 5 small meals a day.

when are you posting a pic of yourself?

don't stress too much, worry is a waste of time and energy, it doesn't change anything, sto try to take things easy and the acne will go away. And EAT, ok?

thanks for taking the time to drop by. Glad your pc is fixed, will be hearing from you again soon, then?

take care

x

hey i appreciate your support too. thanks

smart move about the response to the email. let's see what the response will be

i hope you hear from your math teacher. can you nor get them to ask for the teacher's email, so you can email them yourself

I'm at work at the moment and for the life of me cannot open up your last entry, there must be some inapropriate words there that have been blocked here at work. I will check it out tomorrow.

Thanks for posting. I hope the pc gets fixed soon. I will miss you my lil friend

Thats great that you and your step brother are getting along. good for you.

the face thing it gets better after a while my doctor gave me some stuff like that and ea it burns for a while and your skin does peel but it gets better though so dont worry it will start healing soon.

Responding to your comment....

This contractor has done lots of homes here but I guess there's always that chance that something could go wrong and it did....LOL   

If the land wasn't so much I'd bought the land and then had  house built but last time I looked I wasn't made of money....LOL    Even tho I wish I was      LOL

House is nice tho I will have to take some pics and post them sometime after I get it all finished.

Hugs

Glad school is going good and glad you and your stepbrother are doing good    :)   

As for your face I guess the stuff your using must burn off the top layer of skin huh?    Maybe to give it a fresh new layer of skin?    LOL    Hope the stuff works.

Good Luck!

Hugs

Glad you like things so far in school.   Everything will come in place in due time.  

Hugs

Don't worry about not fitting in and what everyone else thinks about you.    Hold your head up high and just focus on you and getting thru school.   

As for your old situation it will take time to adjust and I'm sure you will never forget about what happened but look at the bright side your getting a fresh new start make the best of it.    I'm sure it won't all be a bed of roses but life itself is not a bed of roses.

Hugs

i did post the pics actually. no body commented, so i removed them but you can go to myspace.com/babsido for my pics

let me know what you think ok?

I am glad things are not bad for you ad school is going well

good to know you things are looking up

thanks for your advice on my diary, appreciate it

What i can say here is: try not to analyse everything, you are still new at that school, so it's not weird not to have friends yet, as long as the people are nice to you

Have fun

you do